What's Been Going On

I'm currently at Starbucks, taking a break from something because I'm already getting bored.

Feels like it's a great time to just write down some thoughts, do a bit of reflection and update this blog again. 

So, how am I doing? I honestly feel like I am at a really stable place right now. Not my dream/goal state of life, still has a lot of things that I know I need to accomplish and do; but I have  feeling that I'm actually doing pretty good and working my way to where I want to be. 

Career wise, I'd say that my 12 year old self would be a bit disappointed because this wasn't the goal in mind. But it isn't actually a bad thing. Although this wasn't what I wrote in my 'Where I'd Be 20 Years From Now' essay, this actually is, like what I said, a stable place for me. I'm happy that the business what we planned and conceptualized is doing really good. Expansion is on the works. We accepted another challenge and ventured into another business. It's looking promising and we're hoping for the best. I've also been writing on the side. I missed it. I miss beating the deadline. I missed that awesome feeling after successfully finishing articles and not getting any revision requests. 

I am also at a phase in my life where I feel like I have the best relationship with my friends. Back then, I'd tell my friends that I am not the type to keep in touch. I was actually the proximity-wise type of friend. I'm proud to say that, somehow, I'm getting better in making sure that I do not lose the connection with my friends. Still a lazy chatter/texter, but I've made quite an improvement. lol.

My love for four legged furry friends. I've been told by my bestfriend that I once told her that I am not the type to love dogs. But look at me now. lol I have Ruffy whom I cried to, who I love so much and who I am really thankful for. I never really thought that I would fall inlove really hard to a furry friend. I have a new furry love, Hunter. He will be with my sister most of the time, but I know I love that little pupper already!

With my family, my parents are back in the country. It honestly still weirds me out that they're here. That I have parents to come home to whenever I go home to Manila. Actually admitted to myself that it felt good not to feel responsible about the house and about everything in our family. It feels good to have a mother to come home to. Feels good that I have a father who cooks caldereta whenever I crave it. We also welcomed two new people in our family. My brother is now married and with a kid. Still not the best with kids, but I adore the little boy. 

With my lovelife, well, just like how my life in general is -- it's at its most stable state I would say. Not where we want to be, but working our way there. I know I've said this quite a lot of times. I know there would be a number of people who will question this and raise their eyebrows on me, but I know and feel that difference this time. I couldn't be more grateful for all the support, patience, love and understanding. The storm that we braved last year made us stronger -- that's what I'd like to believe. Haha. It's never going to be always happy, but we can always make sure to just work towards the same goal. It's okay to feel tired. It's perfectly normal to hate your partner sometimes. You're not a fool if you choose to forgive. You aren't evil and undeserving if you make a mistake.  It's common to get into each others nerves. These are all part of what's going to make you and your relationship stronger. 

Self love. This time, I know that I love myself better. I think that's the most important thing that I have learned last year. To love myself. I learned to forgive myself for the things that I did, for my misses, for simply just being imperfect. When I learned to accept the flawed person in me, that's when I realized that even though I messed up, I still deserve to be heard. We all make mistakes. No one is perfect. Even though you are the most imperfect person, you still deserve to be valued. You have self worth. Your feelings are still and will always be valid and should be valued. Self love isn't selfish. 

So that's that. Back to work!